I just want to say, first and foremost, thank you to everyone who has continued following me, even after my serious lack of activity over the past year. It means a lot to me that you've stuck around, you guys make me feel super special
I'm gonna be super honest with you guys, and this is super personal but I think you deserve to know, the reason for my inactivity is that around September I was hospitalized and institutionalized in a mental rehabilitation center for two weeks after trying to commit suicide. I'm better now, I'm seeing a therapist weekly and taking all my needed prescriptions to make me better, I just think I finally broke after having so much pressure built up on me because of school. I've got Borderline Personality Disorder and PTSD (although I don't like having the BPD label as it makes me sound like my personality is all wrong, when truthfully it's my emotions) and I'm working every day to get the help I need so I can always be here for my friends and loved ones, who are what have kept me going all this time. During this past year, my best friends
and my wonderful family reminded me about how much I am truly loved and that if I ever do kill myself, they will all learn zombie voodoo spells to bring my ass back so they can kill me themselves
I guess the point that I'm trying to get here, is that everyone is worth it, everyone's life is special, even if you can't see it yourself. When you're in that state of mind, you feel like no one will miss you, but as I quote the Doctor himself, "In all my 900 years of travel, I have never met anyone who wasn't important".
So please remember that, you are worth something, you're worth everything, and you will leave the biggest whole in everyone's hearts if you're gone.
Okay, wipe those tears away! Enough with the super serious stuff!!! I want everyone to know that I'm getting my ass in gear and I'll start posting a ton of new shit ASAP! I did just start a new semester (hence all the drama above, seriously stressing out, but I'll do fine
) and I'm sure a bunch of interesting experiences are coming my way as I'm the only freaking girl in my classes!!!! I'm working on my second degree in Computer Repair and Support, which as many know, is a heavily male area of study, so this experience should be one for the books, I just pray to God that I don't get singled out. I'm not here for dick, I'm here to learn
(I'm sure you can see where I stand on that whole "fake geek girl" bullshit)
So YAY FOR NEW BEGINNINGS!!!!